I start each day with new beliefs I want to embrace.
Many times they are concepts I understand consciously, but are beliefs I am ready to internalize on a deeper level to make a difference in my perspective, and overall life experience.
Today, the most important phrase for me to focus on came up as:
" I allow myself to be vulnerable and sensitive in my relationships."
Now, I would not describe myself as a warm and fuzzy person, although I do get along with people of all ages, backgrounds, and cultures.
My immediate response was, "how can I really be productive and proactive if I am sensitive? if I am vulnerable and show my weaknesses?
I already feel I am a sensitive person, reading energy of others and understanding more than what meets the eye. I often find this makes it challenging for me to be in situations where authenticity is lacking.
As I let the phrase marinate in my brain, the thought of Brene Brown's incredible TED talk on vulnerability sparked brightly.
I decided to listen to her talk on the way to work this morning.
She reminded me that vulnerability is about the ability to be courageous. Now, she differentiates courage from bravery, stating that courage is about living fully from the heart.
I know in this period of uncertainty, I have shunned away from living as boldly as I could be. I've hidden my heart's desires in hopes that some stability would prevail in the meantime.
Yet, I've been a risk taker all of my life. I've wanted to live big, free, unencumbered... traveling lightly through this Earth... sharing joy and experiencing freedom along the way.
While this all sounds like rainbows and unicorns, I do know that my heart thrives in newness. My soul longs for adventures, opportunities for growth, and unabashed decision-making.
Brene reminded me that the new choice for me today is to share my heart openly.
My new choice for today is to trust that I am worthy of love, belonging, and the manifestation of my dreams.
Today, I chose to lean into this truth by asking questions, authentically connecting with others, and being willing to write down (once again) my big dreams and heartfelt longings for my life.
The insights I've gained thus far:
- my relationships are smoother when I am connected to the wellspring of joy within me
- I take things less personally, knowing that each person is going through their own challenges of being truthful and courageous
- My unique self has a purpose in the world, and I am confident that things are working out for me
- Even though I may not see the big picture ramifications of my dreams now, I accept where I am at (without the judgment that I should be further along my path, or need to know the ending right now)
- I just feel better in my being when I remember that I am where I am, and that is just the right place to be for me.
If you haven't listened to this 20-minute segment, I highly recommend it! This could be your new choice of the day!