Ever have those mornings where you wake up excited about your day, and the plans you have set for it, only to have the plans go entirely out the window?
When this happens, it feels like a shock to my system. It seems as though a void is left in my day and I'm challenged to recreate it in a way that could be as thrilling as what I had originally planned.
In other words, I'm disappointed.
We were set to spend the day at Lake Almanor, golfing at Bailey Creek and enjoying their steak cook off this evening. However, the weather is cold and wet up there. I'd still normally brave the conditions to play (since I love the game that much), but the 26 mph winds is a bigger deterrent.
Now, it's still early enough in the day to start something new.... only, the same weather conditions do apply here and most of my activities might need to be indoors.
As many of us do often in life, I started to let the circumstances of the morning determine my actions. I snuggled in bed for two hours longer than normal... then I took Kai for a long walk to beat the rain. Next thing you know, the neighbor's dog shows up on our doorstep to play with Kai, so I grabbed my breakfast and helped facilitate a play date for the two.
The good news is that this series of events led me to my office (just around the corner from my house), where I selected an inspirational card to help shift my focus. It read:
I found this absolutely perfect since this week's attention is on our energy levels and how they change. My energy levels are again low, which has seemed to be a trend lately -- one I've noticed since I started this internal journey the past ten days. Perhaps starting to re-read The Four Agreements, one of my all-time favorite books, will help provide some fresh insights as to why this is occurring.... well, that in conjunction with the tools in this mastery course that I've seemed to set aside in the busy-ness of life.
My main lesson today: let go of the expectations.
I tend to expect myself to do my best - work, bake, relate, create on a high level at all times. I desire to be at peak levels of performance in all I do.
Today, I've decided to give myself permission to be disappointed. I've given myself a free pass to do less today, and to revel in the freedom that comes with a free day in my schedule. I've also made a conscious decision to look for the best in what comes of the day, and be present with whatever actions arise out of this freedom.
Today, i will do my beset and know that my best is good enough.
What does your best look like today?